It begins

Somehow I went back to that place
where we first met ,
hoping to see you there ,
The answer I expect you won’t
give is my heartbreaking fear ,
Several miles traveled to go away from you ,
Several years now I am at place where we used to ,
I walked through corridors remembering each flashbacks ,
Those rose tinted glass still have cracks ,
It begins as I used to follow through muddy football ground ,
It begins chasing faded steps in the ground ,
It begins until I won’t stop.

I should have been going back home ,
But this heart has stubborn hope ,
No matter how many amends I make it would take a picture of memory to fill this frame ,
You are the person I am never loosing feelings for ,
The silent empty corridor reminds me of visitor that was long lost ,
I begin where we left each other ,
I begin where I should not go further,
It begins from crowd of  feelings I tried to left behind ,
It begins seeing you through rose tinted glass cracks I tried to smile ,
It begins until I won’t stop.

The ashes of those memories took its form ,
I couldn’t see what I came expecting from ,
Then not mine I can not even claim today ,
I thought maybe after all these years I would have changed ,
Seeing exit I tried to go out ,
Still I looked back and empty building somehow ,
I am still not that lost if I could be found here again ,
I would still expect shout of my name from familiar sound ,
On one hand I would love to listen from you ,
On the other I wouldn’t expect that too ,
It begins when I keep my hopes too high , it begins when you haunt my mind no matter how many towns I passed by ,
It begins seeing from those rose tinted glass ,
It begins if I moved a little fast ,
It begins only I am able to stop.

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